How should i say?!!!

Miserable October!!!!!!
We have been planning my trip to Italy since beginning of 2007. We planned to visit Italy, Swizterland and Paris in July 2007 but due to the resignation of ex-GM, that's y we postponed our trip to this yr. Too bad, my annual leaves for the whole of 2008 are not enough for our 12 days trip. All my leaves gone to D&D (2days), Closure on CNY & Hokkaido Trip (7days), Tokyo Trip (5days), Bangkok (2 days), Team Building at Bintan (3days). Total Annual Leave taken - 19 days. But it's alright if we didn't manage to go Italy this yr as we already been to Hokkaido (we planned to visit at least 1 further Country every yr).

Since Sept this yr, we started to collect quotation from different agencies for our Europe trip. My schedule managed to match with Dynasty Travel. Depart on 22 Jan and back on 3 Feb, in total I only need Mee Mee to approve 2 days leave (23/1 Friday & 3/2 Mon). As 24-25 Jan is weekend, 26-27 is PH, 28-30 is compulsory leave as our company is closed during the 5 days of CNY and 1-2 Feb is weekend. PERFECT!!!

I told Cindy about it in Sept, but she mentioned that it's too early now, talk to her sometime in Nov. Ok fine, as I don't think it will be a problem.
And one fine day, when we were having our SMT Meeting, Mee Mee & Monica both were planning about out Incentive Trip which was planned to be in Feb 09. June den informed us that Feb & Mar is not advisable for us to go for our Incentive Trip as Feb & Mar, we are expecting a new TV program coming up. In the end, both Mee Mee & Monica agreed to go for Incentive Trip the 6th day of CNY (30/1), which i might be in Italy at that time. I was shocked and my mind was blank. But i know, no matter what i still have to give up my trip for Company trip. In the end i did not make any noise throughout the whole meeting. Actually i did said that during that period is expensive but i hoped Mee Mee don feel that i said that is because i don want them to go during that period. --------------------------------------------

Few days after SMT Meeting, Cindy called me and wants me to consider and give her a firm answer on whether i want to go Italy or to follow our Company Trip. She said that she have told Mee Mee that i might not be able to join them and she said that it can be considered. Which mean there's chances of me going to Italy instead of following them. I seriously think about it and i gave Cindy my choice and she did told Mee Mee about it.

How do I know she did informed Mee Mee? As Mee Mee called me the next day asking why I don't wanna join them and where got fun without me going!! She asked me not to go Italy 1st, postpone to other month and she said that she already approved my leave if i wanna go other month. At that moment, i said OK!! :<

But thinking about it after we hang up the phone, i sms Mee Mee telling her that i will think about it. Until now, i have yet reply her. She coming to Sin on Tuesday what should i tell her? I still choose to go as if i don go i really dunno when den will i be able to go. Even though she approved my leave liao but i still don have leave to go. You see, just Jan itself, i need to take D&D (3days), CNY (3days), and if go company trip (5days), total leave taken - 11 days. I don't have much leave to go for 12 days trip.

I have decided to go for my Italy Trip, just that i dunno how to tell Mee Mee about it. But no matter what, she sure will ask me about it on Tuesday. Let's Pray Hard!!!